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Mandan made care to steady Sera as she attempted to embrace him, missing because he'd stepped back. As she thanked him with zeal, he simply replied, "You owe me nothing…we're siblings, right?" He immediately regretted saying this, however, as the girl, still holding onto him, enquired after what he'd been about to say…he couldn't simply continue to claim it was nothing, as she'd be able to throw the sibling card back at him. Cursing his luck, cursing the fact that fate had it out for him, he frantically tried to find a way to get out of telling her…and he found none. He knew she wouldn't tell the others without his permission, and she knew he knew that, so he couldn't use that as a bargaining chip…he was well and truly backed into this corner.
"Sera…I…ever since he spoke to me…I…I haven't…I haven't been able…to…transform." The dark boy's voice had faded to practically nothing by the time he managed to spit it out, and it was in a slightly more audible tone that he continued. "I've tried…I can more effectively block out emotions and think rationally when I'm the panther…I was hoping I could use it to sort through things without my emotions crushing me from every angle…but since I…I've not had that option, thus my current state." He neglected to mention the lack of eating or sleeping, figuring that since they had the same source it would be redundant to bring them up. "I've…I've never had an issue before…it's been effortless to be the panther for years, so much that I've felt that perhaps in a past life I was one…and now suddenly I can't manage it, no matter how much I struggle…I…how am I still a Spirit Changer, when I lack our titular ability?" Mandan's voice was tight with pain and anger, though it wasn't clear where the rage was directed…at The Ultimate One, or himself. "How can I be destined for great things when the one thing that I had truly mastered is now beyond me? It defies all logic…"
"Sera…I…ever since he spoke to me…I…I haven't…I haven't been able…to…transform." The dark boy's voice had faded to practically nothing by the time he managed to spit it out, and it was in a slightly more audible tone that he continued. "I've tried…I can more effectively block out emotions and think rationally when I'm the panther…I was hoping I could use it to sort through things without my emotions crushing me from every angle…but since I…I've not had that option, thus my current state." He neglected to mention the lack of eating or sleeping, figuring that since they had the same source it would be redundant to bring them up. "I've…I've never had an issue before…it's been effortless to be the panther for years, so much that I've felt that perhaps in a past life I was one…and now suddenly I can't manage it, no matter how much I struggle…I…how am I still a Spirit Changer, when I lack our titular ability?" Mandan's voice was tight with pain and anger, though it wasn't clear where the rage was directed…at The Ultimate One, or himself. "How can I be destined for great things when the one thing that I had truly mastered is now beyond me? It defies all logic…"